WEEK THIRTY NINE 24/09 -- 30/09

Well this is becoming a habit now and I am quite scared to be honest of the way things are turning dark for me. Week has not begun well with no money once more for the month ahead. Spent the last few days off work and was supposed to have gone to York but I spend it sat at home in tears and absolutely no one to turn to. 

These are the days when I think about going to Beachy Head or somewhere and take that final leap. 





Not even been able to see friends, its scares me to go out and I honestly don't want to bother others since I know they have their own issues which are much more than mine. Mine are self imposed, there is no way out for me I know that now, it's just a question of time. 

Only the feeling that I would be letting the family down is keeping me going, there isn't very much else really, and no amount of beating myself up and self harming is going to fix things in a hurry. So what can I do? 

Had Monday and Tuesday off, and instead of being in York I just went to the Crematorium to sit and think, I go here regularly enough over the years and it's nice and peaceful, yet still can't move on as such. At least got out of the house and did find the will power to go meet an old friend Mark in Egham so that was something positive and a really good catch up.

Boost your energy.

Exercise and a proper diet are the best energy
boosters.

• Never skip breakfast. A good balanced breakfast
boosts your energy all morning long.

• Get exercise. Being active is the best way to boost
and maintain energy.

• Limit how much alcohol you drink. It depletes
your energy.

• Avoid overeating. Big meals leave you feeling sluggish.


• Have light snacks throughout the day. 
Frequent small meals and snacks help you maintain a constant energy supply. 

Choose healthy foods that give you energy, such as fruits, nuts and yoghurt. Avoid sweets, crisps and other foods that are low in nutrients and high in calories.