2019 DIARY WEEK THIRTY FOUR 19th AUG -- 25th AUG

This week will be fine when we get to the end of it, as we'll have been paid, and hopefully we can have a little money to see myself get out and about on the Bank Holiday Monday. Written up other blogs and trying to be good but sometimes it's not easy, Monday was fine, bearable, though breakfast was a bit rank. Still this situation does mean I can think about booking days off for rest of the year and I'll have Mon/Tue to consider so we can chill and have a few short weeks before the year is up. 

No Jenny on Monday which was a shame, always nice to see her in, Vikrant back and I don't know why but a little irritating still he's new, we shall find something to get him busy. Made updates to my Kempton Blog for the Wednesday and ready with some for the weekend too. Tuesday I really didn't enjoy in the office, was trying to keep myself to myself and avoid others which didn't really work, at least I've money to get through and picked some bits up this week so we will get to Friday I think just about. 

Need to give Graham another call on Wednesday and see if he's free this weekend either Saturday or next week, can get a train over to Egham and see them. Sunday will be quiet as no trains so just get shopping, some beers and rest. Thing is that life changes day by day for me and as a result of some stupid decisions I really don't think I'll make it out this weekend at all. Down about £150 and if I can scrape that together I will get by with NOTHING for the month ahead. Also need to end the cycle of debt and living one month at a time and this has to start changing NOW. 

So sorry Graham, I do love you all but right now I simply cannot contemplate doing anything, and being social is the last thing on my mind right now.