2021 DIARY WEEK THIRTY NINE 20th SEPT - 26th SEPT

Good morning, another start to the week during which at least we'll be paid and can sort few more things out perhaps. Slept a little better, only up once, which might have been due to the change of bedding although the gaming session wasn't good and I still feel very tired. A chilly day, but dry, consider popping out today or tomorrow, been out this morning, few bits including something to give the carpet a clean? Lunch secured, home for the afternoon and keeping busy. Used up bread and milk today so will nip out again Tuesday locally and maybe a few things on Wednesday. Still feeling fairly tired, slept sporadically during the night again, up watched some of the NFL Monday night game which Green Bay won 35-17 against Detroit. See how Tuesday goes, meetings and calls as usual, found things to do and only went out locally for a walk and lunch. Ironed few bits for later in the week, cut/shave hair and we have a gaming session on Tuesday night but still no Gareth sadly as he has his own issues to resolve. Praying that it will go well and I can get some reasonable sleep into Wednesday. The gaming was better than last week but still not really involved, usually cannot get a word in with the others but they are enjoying it I guess and it might be better once my mind is less occupied. Up most of the night into Wednesday morning, writing this at 4am still, will aim to go out sometime today if only to pick up some lunch. Did so into Tesco, few bits for weekend and home for a rather torrid afternoon and evening, we are starring down another horrible start to the next month. Into office early on Thursday morning and see Liz, busy day but also caught up on some podcasts. Aiming to leave before 4pm as I was here by 7am, seems fair. Work at home on Friday. Heard from Beatrix in Germany, still suffering with flood damage but otherwise seems well, shall reply again later tonight. See how things are on Friday morning and hopefully paid so sort some bills out. Although I got paid and even managed some sleep I started another month without any money and lost the lot, every month the same now, it's really getting to me. I need a break, the two days off next week I should be out, I hope I still can do this, it will be another hard month but there is a possible chance we survive it. Paid some bills, sort out Oyster and get rent out by Monday. You are a clown, and have no will power but sometimes you need to help yourself. Bad. Saturday morning at least clawed a small amount back for you and covered the football but it's a long long road ahead this month. Pay bills, hopefully on Wednesday next week you can check that you are in a safer place. Be good. Happy birthday to Richard too. x