Started off as a self help page seeking a change in lifestyle and attitude since 2016, have kept it going through into 2020-22 as it helps to get stuff off my chest, encouragement, mental health and achievements however big or small they may be. Keep the faith. Be Nice. Stay Alive.
Sunday, 27 February 2022
2022 DIARY WEEK EIGHT - 21st FEB - 27th FEB
Starting the week, not at all well having fallen several times on Sunday, feel sore, bruised and very tired. So didn't work and have also booked Tuesday off as well. Rough and tired, Monday ill and stayed at home, will not be playing gaming tomorrow, try and update other blogs, stayed in bed all day. Not eating anything, listened to the football on the radio and was in bed early, however cannot sleep and time was passing so very slowly, up at 2am to try and find something to do hoping it would tire me out. Tuesday another poor day, had booked the day off so just rest if you can. Wednesday did the stand up but wish I hadn't, sorted out a payment to c/c so that is sorted now and can do the rest end of the week when paid. Shivering, cold, even under the quilt and in front of the heater. Life could be better, managed to get bins out, and will need to pop out tomorrow, also post a birthday card for Kristie. Sadly did not post a card, but after another struggle of a night Thursday morning I was up and ran a bath. Then went out later on to pick up some milk and bread etc. Also had a mail from Julia and need to reply to her. Still really awful nights with little to no sleep get through to Friday and paid. So pay some bills then go out and get rent money out over the weekend. Sadly feel that I am ready to end it all as I cannot go on like this, I have a plan, will watch the six nations though. So this may well be my final post on this blog. Take care all love light and peace.
Sunday, 20 February 2022
2022 DIARY WEEK SEVEN - 14th FEB - 20th FEB
This new week begins with Valentines Day 💖 but might still send a message or two out to some friends to say hi. Hopefully rested a bit over the weekend after what was a fairly poor week last time so I will try and have a better time now on Monday. It's a sunny start to the week, though feel very tired, need to go out this morning and get lunch and few things for the week. Though the afternoon was a slight improvement really didn't enjoy today, messages sent for Valentines Day and hopefully well received, just a bit of fun, sharing the love. Shirt ironed for the morning, listen to some podcasts and music, then see how the rest of the week will pan out for you. Up every couple of hours in the night, so another long day on Tuesday for us, see if you can find enough to do. Wet and windy day out there, so have not been outside today, had plenty of work to crack on with which was fine, then an evening of gaming with the lads, still no Gareth, but made it through and in need of sleep. Once more up every few hours into Wednesday morning, check how Liz is after yesterday and today need to pop out and get some lunch and couple of things for me. The afternoon though wasn't feeling 100% at all, so had a bit of a nap and bath later on too so that I was ready for an early start on Thursday and heading into the office for the day. Up all night and not been feeling very strong, but we did set out at 5am and go into office early, aim to leave about 3pm and get home. See what you can get done today. Still not feeling very well, and also shivering with cold so use the heater and put some candles on too. Only had soup and bread for dinner, I think an early night will be the call later on. Feeling a little bit better on Friday, though still very cold with the storm blowing through, not as bad as some in other parts of the country. Got a fair few things done today, haven't got lunch so might go out tomorrow morning instead. Trying to keep warm and busy, updating other blogs too this weekend, also look ahead to next week.
Sunday, 13 February 2022
2022 DIARY WEEK SIX - 7th FEB - 13th FEB
The first day for this week is a landmark birthday for my late father, would have been 88 today and still missing him so very much. Have plenty of work to keep me going and some more blogs to update this week, football against league one leaders Rotherham on Tuesday, then Sunderland on the weekend, also horse racing at Kempton Park (Wed) and we are about a month away from the Cheltenham Festival so begin to draft those. Need to update the SuperBowl LVI blog for Sunday too as Cincinnati Bengals take on Los Angeles Rams. So back to Monday, last day of current sprint, keep busy working and had plenty of meetings too. Feeling cold, did have a check on the gaming session for tomorrow and will see about going out then too. Aim for some sleep and see how Tuesday morning is first. Start of a new sprint, got a free bet and used on tonight's football, will go out later and get some lunch and few bits for me, then after work it's a Tuesday night gaming session. No return from the freebie sadly, and the Dons go on to lose 0-1 against Rotherham. The gaming session was okay, sometimes a bit frantic but we did okay. Not much sleep though into Wednesday morning, and again went out later that day for some shopping, feeling occasionally woozy which is weird, get bins out tonight, bag and clothes ready for an early start on Thursday morning. Got out for the early train and feel tired as always, struggled for sleep most of the night again. See how Thursday goes, aim to leave London about 3pm to get home. has not been a very good day sadly so we hope it can improve before the weekend. Friday up a few times in the night, but some sleep which was welcome, try again with the engagement letter, update it in live and pray that's fine. (or do it over the weekend). Haven't been out today, check money is okay, should survive, it's sunny but cold today and have stopped in. Other blogs updated, we have football and the Super Bowl LVI this weekend to enjoy. More gaming sessions on Sunday too, and apart from cutting my hair don't have a lot else going on. Will have a gaming session on Sunday, usually the best part of the weekend.
Sunday, 6 February 2022
2022 DIARY WEEK FIVE - 31st JAN - 6th FEB
Looks like this will be a long week and until things are improving towards the end of February I fear it will be a bit of a struggle. Still cold and struggling with sleep, but did contact Cousin Jo and written mails out to Steve and Julia so might be able to plan stuff for the coming week(s) ahead. Will be in office on Thursday I guess and can cover that with enough money on Oyster card. Go out early this week and get enough for lunches to see me through then it'll be another three weeks to survive. Busy day Monday, made it through having been out for some lunch, plenty of meetings and things to keep me busy and will update a few things tonight, blogs for racing (Kempton Wed) and also some for Dads one creating entries for February already. Praying for a good night sleep tonight, then see what Tuesday brings me. Slept fairly well in the end, sunny start to the day but still feeling cold, not got much to do today and will stay home as I have lunch in and need to be peaceful. A gaming session later tonight hopefully will be fun. There is also a game between AFC Wimbledon vs Cheltenham Town secured a 2-2 draw so still just above the drop zone with Charlton to come at the weekend. Then we need to find something to do on Wednesday, not a lot of work around, feeling fed up, got a bag ready for a trip into office tomorrow, popped out and got lunch too. Let's see how Thursday turns out, will be heading out early morning, just so I can get a seat on train and arriving early so can depart fairly early too. Not feeling 100% today at all, will see if we can improve later on. Got home eventually, did release in evening and had dinner, feeling so low on energy today. Try and get some sleep too. What does Friday have in store? FA Cup games this weekend, need to blog some more entries for Dads. Aim to keep well and survive the next few weeks, should have enough to see me through and make next month better. Plus on Monday would have been Dads 88th birthday so find something to remember him with.
Sunday, 30 January 2022
2022 DIARY WEEK FOUR - 24th JAN - 30th JAN
Getting paid this week should help us with a few things, lets keep on top of things at work too and also enjoy the regular gaming sessions on Tuesday and Wednesday evenings. Not been the best of weekends, up and down, struggling to sleep too, so need to think of other things to do this week and make it better. Monday was my god-daughter's 18th which was nice, I did get a nice card, and money out to her and the end of the month is my Sister's birthday though I don't hear from them now. Terrible day really, poor, non stop losses, made a mess of plans for January, will probably get through the month but it's another long road again. Heard from Annie which was nice, been out and used gift card up getting some supplies. Hayden dropped some web cam stuff around too, will try that out and see if it helps. Tuesday continued with the disastrous start to the current week losing more and more but will hopefully be able to survive, went out and got rent monies, some supplies and cards for upcoming birthdays. Gaming session in the evening and also look at football match as AFC Wimbledon host Ipswich Town but sadly they lose 0-2 and remain in the bottom five. Slept a little better into Wednesday morning, have decided that I will not be heading into London this week, need to clear my mind and focus. Quiet day really, received purchased train and runs so that was nice, looks like I am a bit behind this month so will need to rectify this next week. Messages from people which was nice, replied to Phil, Sarah, Andrea and need to make better plans. Then let us see how Thursday looks and try to be nice to yourself for the weekend ahead. Had a lay in, which was welcome, popped out for lunch and few bits then do some work in the afternoon. Feel a little more relaxed, shall hopefully find today easier. Not the best of evenings, but we ought to be okay in the end, lets see how the rest of the weekend goes. Friday cracked on with some work the plan is to not be out till Wednesday next week, then it's three more till end Feb. Weekend we have no gaming session sadly but there is football and racing on to watch, with some more NFL play offs too. Keep well, stay alive.
Sunday, 23 January 2022
2022 DIARY WEEK THREE - 17th JAN - 23rd JAN
Got this far in the month and will have the final week before getting paid in January, need to get a card out to Annie for her 18th end of the week, and see about contacting Margaret too after a call from Jo. Update the blogs for NFL on Monday after the first round of play off games, also have football against Portsmouth on Tuesday too, and need to finalise one on Dads for the model trains. Might go out today for few bits but if not that can happen tomorrow instead. Really bad end to the day, I struggled with eCPD failure, and a late one, didn't get much sleep. Tuesday morning, slightly better but still plenty to do and feeling the cold indoors, popped out late morning and got some lunch as well as a few supplies, coffee, milk and bread the usual. The afternoon was fine, got plenty done and ready for the gaming session in the evening, Richard has new headphones and it's giving us all a lot of pleasure. Dons drew 0-0 at home against Pompey so remain in the bottom third of the League One table. Watched the NFL show and then had a slightly better night sleep. Wednesday morning, another cold day will try and be better also need to plan going into office on Thursday have set a very early alarm. Didn't sleep very much at all so was up very early and headed out into the cold morning air for the 5:45 train, breakfast and try to keep busy today. Wasn't too bad, more bothered by my ill fitting shirt today, left at 3pm and home just after 4pm so that was good. Have a peaceful evening at home, and then plan for Friday and the weekend. Slept slightly better and up for a busy day, managed to get money out and posted birthday card away for my God-daughter's 18th. Got some wine and a few bits too for the weekend, feeling a little better but still annoyed myself losing money later on when I should have been in a better place. Weekend will follow the football with Wimbledon playing Burton, and more gaming sessions too.
Sunday, 16 January 2022
2022 DIARY WEEK TWO - 10th JAN - 16th JAN
Second week into the new year, still very cold and wet here, busy Monday with plenty of work meetings, and also I have other blogs to update for this week. Starting with the NFL Playoffs that will begin on the weekend, then Kempton Park racing on Wednesday night and another home game for AFC Wimbledon against Morecambe. Popped out after one of the first dull meeting and picked up few bits for me and lunch, back and started on the blogs, then another meeting at 2pm. Struggled for sleep once again and started off Tuesday morning with a strong coffee, Mrs H out so bath, clothes for Wednesday ready and popped out to Tesco for a few supplies, more meetings this afternoon and then a gaming session in the evening with the guys. A good session in the evening, an excellent ambush to begin, then a bit of a slugfest where we might have perished, so some enjoyable times. Wednesday cold morning, things not working great, will need to ready bag for going to office in morning, then we will have a Kempton meeting in evening to update, bins to go out, and dinner. Hopefully Thursday will be a better day? Well we headed into office early, taking a walk at 5am, got breakfast though, will leave early pm and get home, probably early night? left at 3pm and took ages to get home, cannot say the evening was a success and tried to sleep. Friday was a struggle, ended up going into London to test some stuff in office as impossible to do so at home, left early and picked up milk and bread for weekend, will try and have a good evening then see about the rest of the weekend itself. Charge clippers and cut hair is on the list, shopping, and blogs to update. Hopefully I can catch a little sleep too. Well here's hoping anyway! Have enough supplies in, might go out early next week, also do the blogs for Football as AFC Wimbledon host Morecambe which ended in a goal less draw and keeps us in the bottom five while on Tuesday night we will host Portsmouth in another rearranged match.
Sunday, 9 January 2022
2022 DIARY WEEK ONE - Happy New Year - 1st JAN - 9th JAN
It's the start of another year. Can it be any better for you, I guess it cannot really get any worse for us. Was up to see in the new year with the fireworks exploding all night, some serious action at midnight and also a wee chat with Steffi. Up early ready on Saturday and catch the early racing shows, podcasts, look at the weekend and what I need to do. Sent a list of items for the gaming sessions to Vince and hopefully I am on track with that. Soon to be back to work and will also need to prepare for that, keep busy. Sunday morning another lay in, didn't go out, will probably do so on Monday, but instead listen to podcasts, update some blogs, prepare for gaming session tonight which was fine after a slow start. Monday up to listen to shows and then go out later in morning for some supplies and lunch. Ironing to do as back to working tomorrow, do some ironing and level up my character for the gaming session. Need to be ready for the return to work on Tuesday which turned out reasonably well considering, kept busy and helped out. Gaming in evening was a long slog, we made it through and need to recharge the headset. Slept a bit into Wednesday morning, very cold only 1C showing and will need to get through today again and then sort out a deposit for tomorrow too. Updated Kempton blog tonight and had a nice start to the year there, second meeting next week, work was okay in the end, kept busy and see how things are rest of this week. Thursday morning, will be working at home again and need to call into Bank as well and sort out money. Feltham branch is closed due to Covid so made a trip over to Richmond which thankfully was open and sorted that out. Picked up some lunch and back home, more calls and meetings, trying to get things done this week. Quiet evening and head into Friday with couple more weeks to go, see what the weekend has in store for us. Paid the CC today too which leaves me with no cash but some funds on two CCs hopefully that will see me through. Weekend looks cold and wet, there is FA Cup football and my side AFC Wimbledon travel to Boreham Wood with an upset very possible. Not a lot elsewhere, some gaming sessions and trying to sort something for Hayden as a thankyou for his loan of some decent headphones.
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