WEEK TWELVE 19/03 -- 25/03

Oh and this week had started off so well too. 

Been doing more exercising, some weights, avoiding the junk food and beer and I even started losing a few pounds too. 

So please, why do I feel so rubbish as I write this today. 


Well looking back to Friday that was great, met with my Brother and few others to follow the Cheltenham Festival and Gold Cup Day. Even had a few winners including the big race itself which was nice but the day got bad cos I was drinking and though felt I was enjoying it at the time once i got home it was sickening. 

We won the rugby on Saturday and that was awesome beating the French, I came back into work and there's just so much spinning around my head that I can't even focus on the positive things that my year had been delivering me so far. 



Yet I still feel really on edge, I know I am still very emotional about losing my friend and think I am just worried what will be going wrong next. Need to "snap out of it" but as anyone who has even been remotely affected by depression will know this is impossible and there is no magic fix or cure. 

Have to keep taking it on step at a time, one day after another. I DID get through the week so I really ought to be happier about it, stop looking backwards and keep focusing on the future. 

Easter weekend, I am NOT scoffing choc eggs, but I will be out to Richmond or Bushy park or I might even nip down to Brighton or Beachy Head, both are favourite locations of mine the air is crisp and the view is refreshing. 

Have a wonderful Easter out there. Be nice.

"Oh, what fun we had, but at the time it seemed so bad

Trying different ways to make a difference to the days!"