WEEK FORTY FOUR 29/10 -- 04/11

A difficult weekend but managed to get through it okay, really needing to work on my routine as I don't seem to go out anymore although a lot of that is due to the lack of funds which is an issue I've already been trying to come to terms with myself. Missed the railway club open day as I really wasn't in the mood to go out and join in for once but there is another one before Christmas so will aim to attend that. Have also recently found that my Sister is looking to sell some of her trains of my late fathers and I don't have the money to buy them off her, not a problem her selling them, it's none of my business what she does with her possessions, I think it's just that I would have liked to have been in the position to acquire them for myself but never mind I'll have to get over that. 

It's Halloween weekend and so far no trick or treat'ers been knocking on our door though that might change on Monday night I guess, as it turned out it passed off reasonably well and wasn't too bad after all. Was also my friend's son Oscar's 13th Birthday so the mischievous man is a teenager what's that going to be like. 

I did keep fairly busy Have been busy though followed the football on Saturday which could have been better since my side (AFC Wimbledon) lost in the last moments 3-2 to a good Bradford City side. That aside we are playing well and should continue to be competitive in this league, it's the FA Cup next weekend and a good cup run would be welcome too.  

Sunday was good, a day at Wembley watching the NFL game between Washington Redskins and Cincinnati Bengals, that game lasted over four hours and went to overtime with the result a 27-27 draw. Easily the most entertaining game of the three international series played over here in the UK and will look forward to next seasons fixtures. 

The rest of the week itself was fairly quiet, I need to focus on things like weight loss again and getting back to using weights at home, had a nice exchange of messages with a friend on Monday that helped us through the day, she's a sweetie but will never be more than a good friend. Will aim to call over next week sometime and say hi to her and the boys, though it does continue to remind me that I am very alone and have never really held down a partnership with anyone. Is it too late for someone my age, maybe, although it's not the age that is the issue really, it's the mess you have made for yourself with your poor health and finances, and it's these that MUST be addressed not just now but for the next year or so. 

Next time we'll update with the monthly stats for my weight, but I think I already know there isn't any improvement this month as recent depressive periods often leads to lack of motivation and also to comfort eating too. We will see how we can carry on though till the end of the year. [Soon be writing Christmas cards out I guess lol].