2021 DIARY WEEK TWENTY ONE 17th MAY - 23rd MAY

Another new week and busy with work on the Accountancy Daily site, try and focus and get on with things, still no money which should have been better given the weekend but it's done now so simply get through the week ahead. Monday try and go out later today and get a few things in for myself, did that after the demo's at work, and although I see loads of people out in the pubs and gyms I still not really feeling great about it myself. Nothing to do with the virus, simply so used to being at home all day that I have anxiety just going out anywhere. So as I am due to be off for a few days next week I do need to get out somewhere even if it's just taking the buses or trains over to Kingston. Tuesday couldn't sleep again, so up till about 3am. Need to do something today and get through, gaming session tonight with guys, try and enjoy, Hayden's sessions are usually good fun, and it was fine, just nothing of great interest tonight, no variation and as a result really not finding a lot of joy in the sessions. See if we can sleep any better tonight then Wednesday shall see about going out shopping again, using up the gift card I received (done) home again have lunch and then the afternoon is more meetings and looking to take care of yourself. As usual no money, and will need to try and be better over the weekend too, try to get some rest tonight and see how you cope with Thursday morning, still very grey and cloudy out today, was going to pop out but will have to see about that. Too many long work meetings so didn't venture out today, will see about that on Friday if the weather improves as it's very windy and plenty of rain around. Made it out and picked up sufficient supplies for the weekend ahead. Had a far better evening than expected and in a much safer place with the money situation now looking okay as we hit the weekend. The weekend will also see plenty of sporting action F1, Horse racing and the final few Football games of the season, then in a couple of weeks we've The Derby at Epsom and the start of the Euro Championships which were supposed to be held last year. Fucked up my money situation again and will now have next to nothing for the coming month. I really do hate myself but cannot find anyway to STOP this situation continuing to get worse every month is the same now. 😠