2021 DIARY WEEK THIRTY ONE 26th JULY - 1st AUG

Same old story, every month, done all my money again (and more too) so another month of feeling low, fed up and know that you cannot change this. Got a little cash on the hip, enough for a week, and will survive on credit cards rest of the month as long as we continue to work at home most of the week. Will be off on Thursday and Friday this week so plan some activity and get out of the house, need to do this, with gaming nights on Tuesday and Sunday this will again be a difficult month unless I find something to do and a change to the routine. Have Galway and Goodwood racing on to update blogs and that will help, then update some more for Dads (done two so far for August) and end the month with a positive outlook. Monday I struggled for sleep most of the night once more, sorted out rent and other bills, still unclear if we going to be okay this month, nothing more I can do till later in the week though but pray. See if you can rest into Tuesday? Fat chance, been up from 1am, after barely couple of hours rest, will be a long day. Was not a great day at all, no money, long month ahead, and the guys called the gaming nights off for a week or two as well. Cannot sleep, really struggling with my thoughts too. Wednesday managed about two hours and shall just have to make do. Get bins out and have a bath tonight, am then off for couple of days and will need to go out or do something. See if you can get over to Staines on Thursday and spend a bit of time out? been up since about 3am, it's going to be a struggle, please try, you can do this, well you never made it that far today so try and get it done on Friday instead. Watched the Olympics, and racing too, updating other blogs. Cut/shaved hair, and changed the trains around. I need to get some of them out for a run soon? See how you feel on Friday morning, aim to head out about 10am on buses to Staines today. Yes we went out, got wet as the rains came, picked up a few supplies, there's nothing wonderful in Staines now, loads of buildings have gone and are now flats. Had a coffee, came home and update more blogs then will rest and see what the weekend has in store.  Vincent and his children coming here on Sunday although Gabrial will have football course to attend for a week, have tidied up but absolutely no money left, sad, but you will just have to get through with just over three weeks to go.