2018 DIARY WEEK TWENTY SIX 25/06 -- 01/07

FAREWELL JENNY x

Another week, starts off in sunshine and having been paid have slightly lightened the mood for a short while. It's the final week in the office for couple of colleagues, William and Jenny, and I need to start working on my own escape plan, which will need some action as I am really struggling to cope with day to day events. 

Leaving drinks, Andrew, Liz, Jenny 

Got paid, money all gone, no chance of going to Sarah wedding so need to cancel that hotel booking which I have now reluctantly done. She will be disappointed with me but there is no option now it is done. I am gutted, this so called life of mine is just a day to day misery. Really Martin what is the point of you ? 

Writing about World Cup games, Horse Racing and yet you actually do very little outside of going to work and coming home. What can you do, how do you change, there is clearly an in built self destruction in you, perhaps it would be better for all if you simply were not here anymore, I mean it's no big loss is it. Where are the happy times, nights out with these guys would be fun. No longer happening. I'm done